Press on

Last month I wasn't very disciplined. I didn't make a strong enough effort to take the 20 minutes I said I would out of the middle of my day to meditate on God's word. I let the busyness of by day creep in and take priority. Even though I was well aware that every time I did take the time to meditate, God blessed that time. Why do I turn away from God and turn toward relying on my own agenda and strengths when I know and have experienced again and again the blessings and goodness that come from turning and surrendering to God? The condition of the human heart is a frustrating thing. Thankfully we serve a very patient and faithful Lord. This month I'm going to try to be disciplined in prayer. Originally, I had planned to dedicate time only in the morning and evening to concentrated prayer... but after last month, seeing how I put my busyness ahead of God and wouldn't stop to take time with Him in the midst of it, I know that I need to dedicate some time in the middle of my day as well to concentrated prayer; to drop whatever I'm in the middle of and SHOW Him, not simply tell Him, that He is more important. I completely understand that I will fail to do this perfectly. I know there will be days where I choose my work over His work. But we are called to press on.

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
(Philippians 3:12-14).