I've given up. Frankly speaking, I feel "done" meditating. In fact, I was done meditating about a week and a half ago... I check my calendar and feel relieved that October is... tomorrow. Maybe prayer will be easier than meditation.

I know how foolish this sounds, but its a very accurate description of how I'm feeling. I was thrilled to begin this challenge; my hopes were high and I got chills just thinking about "all that growth" that we'd witness this year.

But meditation was hard. I don't believe I saw much growth-- if any at all. It was extremely difficult to find the motivation and focus needed to just sit on one or two verses... for a whole week. My impatience urged me to move on.

The couple of times that I actually managed to sit were wonderful. Scripture sunk in, but far too often, I neglected meditation and just journalled and read.

I want to carry moments of meditation on into the following months. I cannot focus on my "failing" to actually discipline myself. I want to turn to Jesus and begin a new month.

Ready or not... here we come, October!