Marcus huffed and puffed.
"Only 10 more seconds. You've got this," I tried encouraging him. We were both pretty sweaty, and I knew that in that moment he didn't like me-- not one bit.
But I also knew, that as he saw the pounds begin to drop and once he started feeling healthier, he'd really appreciate those early morning workouts where I pushed him for ten more seconds.
I'm feeling a lot like Marcus at the moment. I know that later, I will really appreciate the effort of pushing through five more minutes of meditation. I know that the spiritual fruit that this journey will help develop will be wonderful, but right now, its hard to see why pushing for a bit more time is worth it.
My soul isn't naturally going to do things that will increase in godliness. It is still a selfish and sinful, soul. Redeemed, yes, but still human. And so it groans against these things we call "disciplines." It doesn't want to be disciplined. But like any athlete knows... the work pays off.
Anyone else feeling a little slow and unmotivated this first week?
I have definitely been feeling the "un"motivation this week! School orientation has started this weekend for new students and I have been actively helping out over the course of this past week. On the way home tonight I was thinking about how much personal motivation one has to have in order to overcome a challenge. I noted how missing one night of spending time in prayer was a trigger to forget to do it the next night as well. It's good to be reminded that "my soul isn't naturally going to do things that will increase in godliness" but that through God's strength I can overcome all obstacles....and definitely the work will pay off! (:
ReplyDeleteI think Audrere said it so well! "my soul isn't naturally going to do things that will increase in godliness".
ReplyDeleteI have been questioning changes that I want to make but whether i should make them because my flesh thinks "why should i have to change? should i be changing or just keep going on as i am bc i function this way".
I realized that my flesh will fight tooth and NAIL and the devil loves it, soaks it up even as i toss and turn. however, its not like "oh man i SHOULD really do that" its the sight that He gives us as a result of getting off our butts and running that extra 10 seconds, like peanut said. and OH do i understand how you girls feel.
i haven't been feeling unmotivated this first week of classes but rather distracted and anxious of the future. its been frustrating because the anxiety has been interfering with my daily life, relationships and normal thoughts. So, I ask for prayer for relief of this my dear sisters if it crosses your mind.
ladies, may i pray? Father, give us YOUR eyes to see, YOUR heart to move, YOUR direction on where we are to go and may our yes be YES and our no be a NO so that our YES may be all that more beautiful today. For your glory, and Your name amen :) xoxo