I didn't really do the discipline this month. I was going to do meditation.
I half-heartedly read the book.
I dozed as I meditated on the same verses for the umpteenth time.
I never did two of the things I was going to do weekly.
Have I gained an appreciation for meditation? YES. Because it is an area in which I am in desperate need of grace.
And that's where the good news is!
Just because this month was an epic fail at meditation does not mean that I was an epic fail in the eyes of God. Yes, I would have liked to experience his presence more, gotten lost in each word of scripture instead of the back of my eyelids, ended the month being able to sit on a verse for HOURS. haha.
But, has me failing to do that actually changed who I am in Christ? nope. And that's where I am given even more freedom to praise Him for that!
So, with that being said, I am on to practicing confession for the next month.
I am actually really excited for this month, not just because I was so over meditation like 3 weeks ago, but because I am excited for what God is going to teach me. I'm anticipating it will be hard, and praying for more perseverance this month, but also thanking God that he is faithful even when I am not.
Pray with me that I can rest in his faithfulness and mercy.
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