Weekday Philosophy

     People keep telling me, "This is it- this is the big year! Your last year... what are you going to do when you graduate?"
     And there it is, that question. The Question, as a matter of fact, for almost every college senior: what, exactly, are you going to do with what you've worked so hard for the the past four years?
     It is, to be honest, my least favorite thing to hear. Because it's a question that I have no answer for, no clever, scathing remark (and trust me, clever, scathing remarks normally come easily to me). I don't know what I'm going to do when I graduate. I don't have the answers. And that, friends, is frightening. Not deep down, gut-wrenchingly frightening (not yet), but intimidating. And it's something that I spend a lot of time (not) thinking about.
     And then Viv opened this door: spend some time with God this year, she said. Find something deeper than yourself, than your worries. And my first thought was, 'who has the time?' I've got classes to attend, a job, clubs to run, exams to take, grad schools to apply to... the list seems endless. Classes hadn't even started, and already there was no time for God in my life. And that's when I realized: maybe that was the problem. The Problem, if you will. Because as much as I'll claim that I'm a Christian who puts God first, how often does that actually happen?
     So, everyone, here I am, searching for God in my everyday, insane life, trying to sort myself out and find, not what I think I want, but what God wants for me. I'm just your average WeekdayPhilosopher, looking for the answers... hopefully in the right places, this time.