Peacefully Uncertain

As I stopped for a moment to reflect on the name I've chosen for my blog posts, I realized it is very true in one sense, and not so true in another.

The future IS uncertain. So much is in transition. I'm not going back to school this fall for the first time in 16 years. I have absolutely no idea where I will be working this immediate year and even less of an idea as to what I will be doing next year (ie. heading back to school in the hopes of pursing a specific career; continuing working at the job I have yet to get; moving...who knows?). And (most excitingly!) I am about to discover the unknown territory of married life.

All of these things are uncertain. And yet I am at peace. And here is where my title is not so true. As I sat pondering why I am at peace it hit me that its because I am certain about the most important thing: Christ is at the center of where I am now and He is at the center of where I am headed. But I know my self and my flesh. Keeping Christ at the center doesn't come naturally; its a battle; everyday. And when I think about the number of times Paul wrote about training and discipline and endurance (1 Corinthians 9:24-27, Hebrews 12:1-3&11, Ephesians 6:10-18) I am definitely convicted that sometimes I take this battle a little too lightly.

As I was considering whether I would partake in this project or not I thought of all the uncertainties; I have no idea how busy I will be this year or whether I should wait and save my time to commit to a spiritual project my husband and I decide to do as a couple, etc. etc. But the conviction that rang true was that no matter where I am in life; busy or married or whatever it is; one thing remains certain: I need to stay steadfastly dependent on God. I am excited that during this transition year I will not be forgetting to stop and pursue and feed the patterns in my life that draw me closer to Christ.