Well, June is finished. The month I knew made me the most uncomfortable: Evangelism. And yet, it was the month that I put the most heartfelt prayers into; asking God for help in order to guard against simply letting the month "slip by" without making any effort to share the gospel. I started out by making a list of all the people in my life who do not know Christ and began praying for them and for opportunities to talk to them. Half of the month went by and I had made no real effort to go beyond prayer and initiate conversations with these people. So I made myself a challenge, that I would share the gospel before the month was over. Big deal, I know, I should be sharing the gospel every day, but I'll just be downright honest and say I really struggle with the area of initiative evangelism; both with the natural fear of taking that step of faith and with the fact that I've shared the gospel insensitively and without genuine concern for the lost soul I was speaking to but simply because I felt pressured to share the gospel and I don't think that side of things is right either. So I told God that I wanted to share the gospel, but that I wanted to do it genuinely and so I prayed He would break my heart over the reality of hell, that He would break my heart for the lost and that He would open doors and show me opportunities to speak. I started feeling like I there was opportunity at work with some of my Muslim co-workers. We've talked a little bit about religion before but now I was praying that I would be able to talk to them about Jesus. Long story short, it didn't happen. And I was discouraged. With two days left in the month I was sharing my discouragement with my husband and telling him I didn't know what to do; That I had prayed for opportunities; that I didn't really have any; that maybe my heart didn't want it bad enough or my mind was too preoccupied to notice the openings God had given me; or maybe I was waiting for too much of an opening; maybe I just needed to jump in and start myself; And that regardless of why I hadn't had a gospel conversation yet, that I only had one day left at work and I didn't want to be throwing the gospel in someone's uninterested face simply because I had to meet my goal. So he suggested if it didn't happen at work in the time I had left, why not share the gospel via facebook and said that it's perhaps not the best or ideal way, but it is a tool and it can still get the message out. I hadn't even thought of that, and my heart went from downright discouragement and giving up to hope. Hope that I still had one day left and thankfulness that if nothing happened at work, I could still share the message. I spoke with one of my Muslim co-workers yesterday. Initiated a conversation about fasting, as I knew she was doing this month and I was looking for a way to make the conversation go deeper but then we got interrupted and she had to leave. So I did go home and share the gospel on facebook. And I'm so thankful I have that tool to use. But I'm even more thankful that my focus on evangelism doesn't have to, and shouldn't, end with June. I'm excited that I get to continue working with my Muslim friends and am hopeful that I will get to talk about Jesus with them in the future.